Name: Candy
Birthday: 1st July 85
E-mail: flakz85@gmail.com
Present location: Singapore


reading;
perceptive writing;
teaching;
traveling;
musicals, plays, films;
keeping fit;
jazz bars;
great friends!

Finally back on the little dot!

Initially, my spirit was a little dampened by the 3 hours flight delay, but it quickly risen up as the plane took flight. My bubbling anticipation in surprising everyone was building up every mile the plane drew near. ;)

As i stepped home, I finally know what it means to be really, Really Home. Same feeling I had as I stood waiting for the doors of the auditorium in Church to open. The feeling of: "This is home. This is where i truly belong. "

Maybe it is an exaggeration, but i really think that the air smells different. Or is it the mood that has changed from the inside of me that makes me feel this way? No matter what, I am sure a happy girl now, happy to be back to where i truly belong!

Thanks to all the smiles i'd seen on all your faces! They make my day and make the trip back all worth it! ;)
Just The Girl @ Wednesday, June 29, 2005


With misty breath
sweaty palms
i entered the exam hall.

The sky had just broken
the day nearly started
the weather was like a just-ignited engine
-barely warm enough.

Its winter already.

Maybe its my own expectations
maybe its others' expectations of me
But these weight me down a little.
Kept me waking up throughout the night,
more anxious each time i startled up.

Barely a good rest and it was time for the paper.

Throughout the whole time,
the promises that
I'm with you. I'm with you. I'm with you. Do not worry.
Leave everything in my hands.
kept ringing ringing ringing in my head.

How can i forget the angels He sent my way?
First, i had a message from my beloved Jan on sat to remind me that i'm not alone.
Then. a SURPRISE call from Sean to remind me that i'm remembered and God has been so good to bless me with VERYVERY Good friends who stand by me!
Not forgetting the many many encouraging messages and prayers from you guys! (thanks very very much! ;))
A message from Junrong(!) that she's keeping me in prayers, which really really encouraged me to go on.
Furthermore, just when i felt saturated and that couldn't go on anymore, God sent an angel - Alvin, to pop by to pray for me!

Armed with people who truly cares
prayers that had been sent heavenward
promises of blessings
i entered the exam hall.

A really cold morning
which
ended
with a BIG surge of warmth afterwards.

I turned to the scary essay section
and true enough,
the questions that He prompted, Appeared (!!)
I was not entirely unsurprised
After which, i sure couldn't stop saying
"Thank You God, thank you God."


Overall, it is a good start. :)
I'd learnt to leave things in His hands.
So, into His hands shall the papers be! =)

After today's paper, i'd learnt that as i trust in Him in the other aspects of my life, Studies is one area that i have to learn to let go and let God too. I'm still learning, but it sure is getting better.. its going to be the same for you too, whatever area it is. :)

I'm believing with you and
i ain't that far that you cannot see me. ;)
Just The Girl @ Monday, June 13, 2005


Did i mention Spirit to Spirit?

I made a call back on Friday night
because the next day
was to be my dear friend's NS enlistment date.

Perhaps many see NS as a dreadful time.
A time of torture.
A time to learn humilty.
A time to learn "HOW TO BE A MAN."
A time that one'd slipped away from God.

I guess, many a time,
Circumstances arise,
but it depends on YOU
and Your Attitude
towards the circumstance.
This explains why some people Emerge from situations
Stronger
yet some others got trampled by others' feet.

As i made the call,
i expected the voice on the other side of the phone to be filled
with reluctance,
upset with the singapore army system,
or best, a nonchalence.
Yet, little did i expect that
the voice spoke with an exuberant
hope
vision
direction!

He shared of the Youth conference
and
the Spirit of God overflowed.
Do you know that God's presence can really flow from one unto the other?
Yes, even through the phone.
(Do not ever underestimate the power of the Spiritual realm-
it transcends distance!)
As he spoke of how he worshipped
worshipped
worshipped during the 3 days of conference.
In the Spirit
i caught the fire.
I cried,
in the thick and strong presence that flowed out from the other side of the phone.
Wow!
Truly, He is a carrier of God's presence!
God's presence is WOW_WOnderful!

Yes Abraham, I quote you,
"let's take arms and fight this battle like never before!"
As much as you have been a Great friend that never fails to brighten up my life, continue to light up the lives around you!

-For Abraham.
Just The Girl @ Saturday, June 11, 2005


There is a Trapt song that i particularly love and i always sing it like this because i see more truth in this:

Close my eyes
let the whole world pass me by
There ain't no time to waste...

Yap, sometimes i just close my eyes and feel the whole world and time pass me by. :) Especially now that i am preparing for my papers, which is coming up REAL REAL soon, yap, time just ZoooomS by.

Earlier this week, just when i was getting a little drained of my own efforts, God reminded me again that Sky, is my limit. N in case you do not know what is the implication of this phrase: just as there is No limit to the sky, there is No limit to what we can do too. Its one of the visions that God gave me. =) Powerful vision that He gives me and it never fails to encourage me everytime i look up the sky! ;)

The verse My Beloved showed me this week to carry me through:

"He must increase, but i must decrease.(nkjv)"
or
"He must become greater, i must become less.(niv)" -- John 3:30

Truly, i should trust in Him and Not on my own strength.
So, His strength shall increase in my life and my own understanding decreased.
Just The Girl @ Thursday, June 09, 2005


I was just going through my photos and it struck me how much i miss you guys! Very Very much! Truly, all of you are BIG blessings that God has so kindly given to me so how can i ever forget to give thanks for His kindness and for your friendship? :) Love you guys very much!!

It struck me how much i may seem to be on MIA to you guys but, it does not mean that you have in any way diminish in value to me. Really. So, for you guys and a lot a lot more of you (who did not appear on this photo but i'm sure you know who you are...) I just want to say that YOU mean a lot to me!

And to someone VERY VERY Important
who happens to be in Sri Lanka right now...

What can i say? ;) You are on a meaningful community service trip to help the needy and i am so so proud of you! Your sister here has been dreaming of doing that for so many years and to think that you beat me to it! Hmmp! But, i'm coming around and am going to bring the dream to pass!
Prepared to see a burnt Ben Ben when i get back! ;) Ha!
Just The Girl @ Sunday, June 05, 2005


Freak incident #1001 that happened today:
I was walking across a road and nearly miscalculated the distance between me and a truck. This truck was carrying a long pillar and i missed it by a mere few inches. The funniest thing being, i managed to bend my head (all these done subconsciously) and could even feel the pillar brush across my hair but didn't think too much about it until when i finally crossed the road and my friend exclaimed: "I cannot believe you just did that! I was so worried for you because if you had crossed just a few seconds earlier or not bend down, you would be gone by now!!"

Funny thing is how i was not worried at all because i know that God is my shield.

This reminds me of my first freak incident.

Freak incident #0001:
I was a rather curious young girl so i started my Exploring Adventures climbing around. One day, when i was quite a distance from the ground, i lost my footing. As i fell backwards, i was suddenly assured that i'd be safe, like there were a pair of hands holding me. True enough, i landed safely!

Now, I begin to remember the many many times when i had really lost my life while crossing the road, if not for some angels that God sent to pull me back or shout at me, just in time.

So, just how good is God? I have to say that He is very very very very ULTRA GOOD! :)
Just The Girl @ Saturday, June 04, 2005