Sunday, October 30, 2005
There is a girl that gives things, places them in the hands..
and at the last min,
as the person takes the things over,
she asks for them back.
This was exactly what i felt,
as i sat through the sermon this morning.
Everytime,
when i pray that God lifts up my burdens,
my worries,
my cares
and my concerns,
i will ask that He takes them away.
That i trust all these things
in His hands.
But it seems like, everytime after that... as i say that "Amen," i tend to take all of them back again and take them upon my own strength and might.
Ploughing through with my own understanding.Lo and behold, i went to church with a heavy heart this morning. Somehow, i had been having very troubled sleep these nights.. I think, there are just so many concerns that one can hold and i had reached the threshold. On the way there, I shared about my troubling concerns to my friends.
Can you imagine my surprise as the next thing i know was that during worship, God said these 2 words to me,
divine exchange. An exchange for His yoke with mine.Its been a while... since i cried in His presence and it certainly felt refreshing.. to
know and
feel His love. That, under His wings, there are no worries.
Its just such a miracle each time you lift up your hands, lift up your voice and heart...
He hears.
Just The Girl @
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Thursday, October 27, 2005
The most dreaded presentation of the semester.. and i am so so so glad that it is finally over!!! And thank God it went well (just a little too short) but still... *Screams: yippie!!!**
-ha! Pardon me.. Just to share my joy with everyone! :)
Just The Girl @
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Sunday, October 23, 2005
These are the important examination dates, please keep me in your prayers! :)
Thanks veryvery much!
1.
7th Nov(9am-12noon):
Psychology 102 paper
2.
10th Nov(2pm-4pm):
English 115 paper
3.
14th Nov(9am-12noon):
Linguistics 103 paper
15th Nov: Flight back Home! ;)
Just The Girl @
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Thursday, October 20, 2005
A melancholic me, for today.
Just received news that someone close to my brother got knocked down by a taxi on his way to school. I remember that when i was talking to him last week, he mentioned about another of his close friend being diagnosed with cancer and has to go for an operation soon.
It struck me with a big "But..." But, they are so young, still.
One of the best poets to me, Robert Frost says this:
"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It goes on."which, i found to be profoundly and infelicitously true.
I am not too sure now if letting life "go on" is great...
sure, the bad and sad feelings fade away with time.
and sure, you move on in life and meet new and
more exciting people.
Or is it...? Really?
Time, and people seem to be the most vulnerable things in this world.
Because, unlike possessions, they are sometimes even more temporal.
If you get what i mean. Some friendships are just transcient.
Out of sight means out of mind.
isn't it just, sadly, true?Time, and people seem like a slippery fish sometimes
-hard to grasp and get a hold on.
I think it is only human though...
that only what you know you might lose one day,
Would you
cherish.I try to think of a 'moral of the story' for this entry.
Unfortunately,
i can't.
Because i know i am only human,
that even though i may
know,
i would still try to grasp and hold onto the same risks.
Certain things...
until you commit, you can never experience the fullness of it all.
Just The Girl @
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Monday, October 17, 2005
He looked at His clay in His hands and was not satisfied.
He knows that this clay, no matter what shape and time He had already spent on it,
would never be able to stand the heat of the furnace.
So, He added water and reduced the whole shape back to
a
lump
of clay.
Again.Back to the original shape - A lump.
It was hard, when all that i have learnt, i have to learn, again.
The many things that i had took a long time to learn,
and now,
they are the things i have to learn, again.
Well, I am not complaining.
He only chastens because He loves.
And there are areas, the small areas that He is not happy with
and His is changing them.
I know,
i can feel it.
Its only the beginning.
Just The Girl @
Monday, October 17, 2005
Sunday, October 16, 2005
2 weeks, 14 days.
A glimpse into my last 14 days:
Ok days: 11x
Veryverygood days: 2x
Bad day: 1x
Number of instant noodles eaten: at least 20x (the result of busy schedules and a lazy-to-cook-candy.)
Number of late nights: 10x
Number of work due and completed: 5x
Calls home: 4x
Number of times running into the first lecture of the day: at least 8x
Number of God's blessings: countless.
Number of days i exercised: 1x (again, the result of busy schedules.)
Number of Veryvery Good phone call: 2x (with 2 of my best friends!)
Number of very good chats over coffee: 2x
Number of days camped in the school library: many.
Number of sugar-rush days: 1x (when i finally got myself a delicious donut! Ha!)
Number of cups of coffee per day: at least 2/day.
Just The Girl @
Sunday, October 16, 2005
